I guess my real question is. how much is one person have to go threw for it to be enough, for the trials and the bullshit until "god" thinks its enough.
Honestly i can't do it anymore.
You know i have a deal with being lil miss negative Nancy. But just for once i wish things would work out in my favor.
Now along with everything I'm trying to do. I'm going to have to find a new place to live. It may or may not come down to having to ship the chillins to Washington for a lil while. And i seriously can't do that. I can't do that to them. Put them threw that.
Or i guess i never know. It might be good for them. All i know is that I'm fucked. This life I've been living is fucked. And its sad that i have to drag these two down the trail with me. They never did anything to deserve all of this.
I knew being a single parent was going to be hard. But i never imagined it to be this hard. All i know is I've done the best i could.
